Humbled
I'm not a person who's usually at a loss for words. However, something happened to me today that just floored me and nearly rendered me speechless. It certainly made my day.
As I've posted before, I will be starting a new position at work on Monday. I've been in my current position about 2 years now. One of the reasons I took this position is that my boss at the time was not satisfied with my performance in my old job. That person happens to be one of the senior managers in the department. Again, I beleive I posted about it at the time, but I felt that God had a reason for putting me in that position and making me take a step back so to speak.
So yesterday I'm chatting a little with this manager at our annual department picnic and I made a comment, in jest, about part of the manager's organization and I saw the person look at me like they weren't sure what I was trying to say. Reflecting on it last night I realized I might have insulted this person inadvertantly. A person I probably be working closely with in my new job. Given our past history, I thought the best thing to do was see the person today and apologize for any unintentional insuls.
The manager told me they didn't even remember the comment so not to worry. And THEN this person went on to say how pleased they were I'd been promoted and they'd strongly supported my getting the job. And that they were so pleased how much I'd been supporting the organization though all the changes we've been having lately. And that all of my experience in my different roles would be so helpful and that they knew I'd be successful. And it was meant SINCERELY. This is the kind of person that if they didn't have something nice to say, they wouldn't say anything.
All I could say was how much I really appreciated what they said and that it meant a lot. Because it did. I still can't believe we had the conversation. On my part, all I did was let go of the past and focus on doing a good job in the role I've had the last 2 years. And get back to doing what I know how to do well. The funny thing is that Ellen and I had a conversation about something like this just the other day. How that sometimes God puts struggles in your life to prepare you for something bigger and better that He wants you to do.
I'm convinced that this is the case. I've always tried to trust that God will take care of me and give me what I need. If this entire experience isn't a validation of that trust and faith, I don't know what is.
As I've posted before, I will be starting a new position at work on Monday. I've been in my current position about 2 years now. One of the reasons I took this position is that my boss at the time was not satisfied with my performance in my old job. That person happens to be one of the senior managers in the department. Again, I beleive I posted about it at the time, but I felt that God had a reason for putting me in that position and making me take a step back so to speak.
So yesterday I'm chatting a little with this manager at our annual department picnic and I made a comment, in jest, about part of the manager's organization and I saw the person look at me like they weren't sure what I was trying to say. Reflecting on it last night I realized I might have insulted this person inadvertantly. A person I probably be working closely with in my new job. Given our past history, I thought the best thing to do was see the person today and apologize for any unintentional insuls.
The manager told me they didn't even remember the comment so not to worry. And THEN this person went on to say how pleased they were I'd been promoted and they'd strongly supported my getting the job. And that they were so pleased how much I'd been supporting the organization though all the changes we've been having lately. And that all of my experience in my different roles would be so helpful and that they knew I'd be successful. And it was meant SINCERELY. This is the kind of person that if they didn't have something nice to say, they wouldn't say anything.
All I could say was how much I really appreciated what they said and that it meant a lot. Because it did. I still can't believe we had the conversation. On my part, all I did was let go of the past and focus on doing a good job in the role I've had the last 2 years. And get back to doing what I know how to do well. The funny thing is that Ellen and I had a conversation about something like this just the other day. How that sometimes God puts struggles in your life to prepare you for something bigger and better that He wants you to do.
I'm convinced that this is the case. I've always tried to trust that God will take care of me and give me what I need. If this entire experience isn't a validation of that trust and faith, I don't know what is.
Comments
Again, you blow me away with your faith in God and why this happened to you. Obviously you were able to hold to your faith even through the challenging times. The recent challenging times in my life really had me questioning where and if there was light at the end of the tunnel. You totally deserved this positive feedback and I'm so happy to hear that you've got to the point where it makes sense.
I'm still on the journey, but have taken huge steps forward in the past couple months on seeing the purpose of how things happened the way they did.
I can say with complete confidence that you deserve all the success in the world and deserved this positive feedback. You also have my hopes and prayers for everything to go smoothly as you start your new position Monday. There are always growing pains, but I know there will be more great things than hard parts!
Good on you for all of this...you often remind me of the person I am trying to be (in my perfect world).
I really appreciate the kind words. I never thought of myself as a role model per se, I just try to lead by example. It took a very trying time and a conscious decision to let go of what I wanted and to let God lead me where He wants me to go. It was one of the hardest things I ever did but also the easiest. I literally began breathing easier when I finally gave it all to Him. Not to say things have been easy since then but I've been given so many more blessings that I could have ever imagined. Read Matthew 6:25. I think that says it all. Good luck and I'll be praying for you as well.
You ROCK! And yes you are a role model, it's in how you live your life. :-)