Just need to vent


So I'm on line on a Saturday night when I probably should be doing something else. The wife's in the next room watching the World Series (which I could care less about by the way) and I'm pretty sure we're deliberately not talking to each other. I'm in a rotten mood. For some background, my older son has ADHD, and the younger one has PDD (pervasive developmental disorder) which is an autism spectrum diagnosis. He is high functioning, meaning if you met him, you'd never know he was mildly autistic. I have a difficult time dealing with him sometimes and tonight was one of those nights.

I never really had a problem with a temper until I had kids. Other parents probably can sympathize, but I've been working real hard to try not to blow up at the kids. The wife I usually don't yell at, but we have this thing where we don't really fight. We just glare at each other and generally ignore each other if we're mad or fighting. But that's another story.

My younger son is quite stubborn (a charactaristic of the disorder, rigidity) and getting him to do things can be very frustrating. He has an "issue" that I don't feel like going into on the web. Suffice it to say we've been working on it for years with no success and I'm getting very frustrated with the whole thing. I know I should just keep working with him and it isn't his fault because his brain works differently than other kids but it doesn't help when your kid just doesn't get it and you have to deal with the same issue for the 8th or 9th time in a single day (no kidding here people). Then the wife gets mad cause I'm yelling at the kid and she's yelling at me and telling me I'm a jerk and stop talking mean to the kids and then I get pissed at her for being pissed at me and we're off the races.

There are times where I just don't know what to do any more. I pray for patience and understanding and peace but it seems like it never comes. I just want a little peace at home. I know it's a lot to ask for but it shouldn't be. It would also be nice if someone could understand my point of view around here and give me a little understanding. And also stop treating me like I'm an idiot and don't know what I'm doing. Again, that's a whole other thing. So if anyone's listening out there, just say a prayer for me asking for peace. God knows I need it.

I'm going to go watch Andromeda and loose touch with reality for a little while then maybe go to sleep. It beats kicking the walls in.


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