EZ Come EZ Go

It was official today.  I did not make the cut for round 2 of the Queen Extravaganza.  Not that I had expected to.  It's not like if I won the thing I would quit my job to go on tour.  And I did pick the easiest song of the 4 without any solos in it.  And didn't push myself to play to the limits of my ability.  And there were some VERY good guitarists out there.

So why am I still so disappointed?  I guess I let myself live the fantasy for a few weeks and now the bubble burst.  I have no illusions as to my abilities as a musician and what I do well (and not well).  Playing Brian May material is a whole other level from where I am.  I'm good at what I do.  And I've become better as a guitarist and musician since joining Faith on Fire.  Not to mention I recorded a pretty good CD where I played ALL the instruments.  So I should have nothing to be ashamed of.

Except it would have been nice to be recognized by other musicians.  To have a pro like Roger Taylor say "You're good enough" would have been really nice.  Not needed, but nice.  So I'll go back to my everyday life and look forward to starting on my next CD.  Or, at least writing some new music.  It's been too long so after Christmas, when ALL of my MBA work is done, I'm going to see if I can put together some new, kick ass tunes.  And we'll go from there.

In the mean time, if you didn't get a chance to see my audition video, here it is!  Enjoy!


Kate said…
Well I am not music expert, but I personally think you did great! I say their loss!

I can't believe you played all the instruments for your CD, that's impressive.

I read your response about your son and I understand where you're coming from. It's our job as parents to worry. From what I know about you and your wife, I can't imagine that you raised a lazy bum. Lots of kids really struggle with school and the organization of it (homework and project dates, especially prioritizing and knowing how much time to spend on each thing). Often this doesn't translate into the bad job performance.

As far as him wanting to own a business, we all have dreams when we are growing up. I was convinced I was going to be the next John Grisham-which is laughable. Not to say that your son owning his own business would be unattainable, but he might realize that's not the best use of his talents. OR he might realize he loves it so much and shock you and Ellen and himself by turning into someone you might not even recognize with organization and work ethic.

Either way, I know it will turn out ok and just have faith in yourself as a father and Ellen as a mother. All your hard work will be evident one day, we just don't know when that day will be.

I know it's easy for me to say this as my son is only 3 years-old and I'm not trying to compare these 2 things. However, for the past year I convinced myself he was never going to get out of his diaper. Then one day it happened. The day before he was having 2-3 accidents a day and then a flip switched and now it's been 3 weeks with only 1 accident. Again, I know it's not the same--but I think the principle is the same. I saw this over and over with kids I taught too. One day they had to sound out every letter and the next, it just clicked and they were reading fluently.

Keep doing what you're doing and your both of your sons will shock you with what they are capable of!!
Jude said…
I'm proud of you for entering and I still think what you did was kick ass Vince! :-)
sydwynd said…
Kate: Thanks for the confidence. I think I'm over it now. And, I still have copies of my CD available if you'd like one. All proceeds to charity! ;)

I'm sure things will work out for my kid. You know how it is as a parent, you know your kid's potential and you can tell they're not fulfilling it and it makes you crazy. If they would just LISTEN to you... But I recall never listening to my parents either. Some lessons kids have to learn the hard way unfortunately. We'll keep working on him and trust the Lord to take care of him.

Jude: Thanks! I know what I do well, and Queen isn't it. No shame in that. So I'm going back to what I do well. Straight up rock and roll baby!
Unknown said…
I am proud of you for trying : o ) What a great example to set for your boys!!
sydwynd said…
Trish: Thanks! Sometimes you do have to put yourself out there. And I learned something from the experience as well. I'm better than I thought I was. And that I can hold my own with some of these guys if I really wanted. Your support is much appreciated!

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